At age 18, I left home entering the United States Air Force. I was so excited. For the first time in my life, I was on my own far away from home. Now I could do as I pleased, so I thought. Ignorantly, I believed I was capable of being fully accountable for any of my actions Continue reading
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Open my eyes, that I may see Wondrous things from Your law (Hebrew: torah=instructions).— Psalm 119:18I came from a broken home where I had a fractured relationship with my father. As I got older, I struggled with alcohol and sexual immorality (promiscuity, pornography, adultery). And although I had made a commitment to the Father through Yeshua (Jesus) when I was in my 20s, I’d slipped away again over time as trials arose. Later as my down slide progressed, a divorce and a broken relationship with my children sent me into a downward spiral that I could not stop.
My condition was so bad that one night while drunk in a bar, I pointed my finger to the heavens and told Yah (God), ” I don’t care what you think. I’m going to do what I want. So if that means you will destroy me then so be it.”
Even as I rebelled against Yah (God) and His plan for me, Yahweh in His love, mercy and faithfulness, was unwilling to let me go so easily. Because of the many prayers of those who loved me, He went to great lengths to get my attention.
One night again I was in a bar, the Lord sent a total stranger into the bar to give me a message from Him. It shook me to the core. There were so many instances of Yah (God) relentlessly pursuing me and mercifully protecting me. Yet, even after all of this, it took me almost another two years before I repented. On that spring evening, I hit rock bottom. The next morning, I knew it was time for a change and I rededicated my life to the Father through Messiah Yeshua (Jesus).
A few days later, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues (an experience I had previously denied as being possible according to my understanding of scripture). Since then, I’ve walked in freedom from addiction to alcohol, restored my relationship with my earthly father,and have overcome sexual immorality. Yah has also mended my second marriage, which was headed in the same direction as my first, and has been bringing me into the fullness of all that He has called me to.
In recent years, I have dug deep into the origins of the faith. This has brought me to a greater appreciation of the Hebraic roots of my faith. Through going back to the beginning, I’ve changed my view on many mainstream christian doctrines. The study of Torah and the grace that Yeshua has provided has profoundly impacted me. No, I’m not under the Law! I just now see things from a Hebraic perspective. Since most of the Scriptures are penned by Hebrews under the inspiration of the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit), I believe it’s important. Please see “What I Believe.”
Know that He is truly faithful. If you don’t have a relationship with Him, you should consider finding out more.