In the following Psalm, I will replace the “the LORD” with “Yahweh” and “God” with “Elohim”.

Psalm 30 (New King James Version edited by me)

Psalm 30

A Psalm. A Song at the dedication of the house of David.

¹ I will extol You, O YAHWEH, for You have lifted me up,
And have not let my foes rejoice over me.
² O YAHWEH my Elohim, I cried out to You,
And You healed me.
³ O YAHWEH, You brought my soul up from the grave;
You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.

⁴ Sing praise to YAHWEH, you saints of His,
And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name.
⁵ For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for life;
Weeping may endure for a night,
But joy comes in the morning.

⁶ Now in my prosperity I said,
“I shall never be moved.”
⁷ YAHWEH by Your favor You have made my mountain stand strong;
You hid Your face, and I was troubled.

⁸ I cried out to You, O YAHWEH;
And to YAHWEH I made supplication:
⁹ “What profit is there in my blood,
When I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise You?
Will it declare Your truth?
¹⁰ Hear, O YAHWEH, and have mercy on me;
YAHWEH, be my helper!”

¹¹ You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,
¹² To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent.
O YAHWEH my Elohim, I will give thanks to You forever.

Jesus speaking to Peter:

This He spoke, signifying by what death he would glorify God. And when He had spoken this, He said to him, “Follow Me.”  (John 21:19)

The past approximate 9 months have been quite a journey.  My wife and I have stepped out in faith believing you’ve told us to do something that seems totally crazy.  We’ve both been unemployed and believe you’ve have told us to stay so.  After exhausting all funds, we’ve been totally dependent on you, living  each day looking for our daily manna and receiving as needed.  We believe you told us to attend the prayer room each day, make ourselves available to the church( the entire body), looking for every opportunity to serve.

During this time, we’ve also made our home open to a missionary.   The initial stay was to be 6 weeks but,by Your word, has become several months.  You’ve asked us to share all that we have; and we have done so to the best of our ability.  Of course, we have’nt been perfect but we’re tried our best.  I hope it pleases you.  This has been a time of stretching far beyond what we would have imagined possible for ourselves to endure.  We still don’t know how far you’re  going to take us but we’re willing to go.

We want to thank you for redefining the word “humility” to us and also taking us into a life of abandonment to you (something we’re still learning).  I don’t want to disappoint you  by not believing what you have spoken to us.  I believe!…….I believe and again I believe!    I just ask one thing…..Please help me with my unbelief!   Sometimes I have moments of unbelief…..please help me Lord!  I know it sounds contradictory, however it goes on in my heart……I hate it…..please forgive me.  Without faith I cannot please you!…..I BELIEVE!

Lately, our provision seems to be at end (don’t want the scarcity mentality) and we’ve been wondering if this is a sign to change course.  But each time we inquire to you, there is no answer to our question concerning this matter.  However, at the same time, we have seen long time prayers fulfilled everywhere else in our lives.  I ‘ve seen  my brother-in-law profess Jesus as Lord and You’ve given me a clearer picture of my destiny.   This is encouraging , a reminder that you definitely have not forsaken us.  There are so many other things I could mention but it would probably take up several pages.

Even though some may continue to think we’re crazy, we will keep the course even it we lose everything or it kills us.   Until you speak, we cannot change course.  Someone reading this is probably thinking that we’re stupid and not getting it.  That’s okay, if we look like fools seeking the will of the Lord, we’ll take that chance.

I just want You to know Lord God  You are good and faithful!  You are full of mercy and grace!  You are love!  You are awesome, marvelous and wonderful. We trust You.  We adore You.  We know You will guide our path.  We cry out to You, our God.  And by the  blood of our Lord Jesus, we worship YOU!   In the name of Your Son, Jesus Christ.

You’ve had some random encounters with strange men.  This has been something you’ve hidden for years……but you feel your wife is suspicious and your marriage is not going so well.  You’ve become angry, frustrated and depressed.

Peter you have a knowledge of God but you don’t know how  to reach Him.   You’ve gone to church in the past and feel it’s not what you want.  Right now you’re feeling suicidal…..however, no one would ever know.

Peter there is a God….and He knows what’s happening……and He wants to heal your pain.

Say this simple prayer Peter, “JESUS HELP ME”……that’s all He’s waiting for.