As I continue to draw closer to my God, many times I come before Yahweh knowing that my heart isn’t pure at all (Jer. 17:19). Sometimes feelings of shame and guilt run rampant thinking of my sin. Often I think of these words from Job and David:
Job_7:17 What is man, that thou shouldest magnify him? and that thou shouldest set thine heart upon him?
Psa_8:4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?
And yes, I do understand about the blood of Yeshua yet I don’t want to take that for granted and pull the grace-card every time I come before Him. I don’t think that’s appropriate or legitimate. I have to take full responsibility for my actions understanding the battle I fight with this flesh. Through my sufferings, I really get a better sense of what Paul wrote about in Romans 7. Doing what I don’t want to do knowing I should do what is right….Arggghhhh!
This calls to mind the account in Exodus 20:18-20 when the people of Israel were before Yahweh at Mt. Sinai.
18 And all the people saw the thunderings, and the lightnings, and the noise of the trumpet, and the mountain smoking: and when the people saw it, they removed, and stood afar off.
19 And they said unto Moses, Speak thou with us, and we will hear: but let not God speak with us, lest we die.
20 And Moses said unto the people, Fear not: for God is come to prove you, and that his fear may be before your faces, that ye sin not.
Did you get the last verse? So in drawing near to God causes fear so that we don’t sin. This is interesting. I say this because sometimes I believe we stress grace and mercy so much that we forget that our God, Yahweh is a consuming fire (Deut. 4:24, Heb 12:29). We are made righteous by the blood of Yeshua but that doesn’t mean we should expect an obligatory pass when we are clearly sinning against our God. Having an awesome fear of Him is healthy. Yet, even knowing this, there’s something within me that says, “No I don’t want to and I don’t have to. I can do what I want to do. Leave me alone”. Sometimes I feel like the children of Israel. They would rather have an intermediary in Moses than be in the presence of Yah. As Moses did (Exodus 32:9-14), Yeshua intercedes (Romans 8:34, Heb. 7:25) for us: however, we are still accountable for our actions.
Rom_14:12 So then each of us will give an account of himself to God.
Heb_4:13 And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Heb_10:30 For we know him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people.
1Pe_4:5 but they will give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead.
I’m not saying these things to have you without hope or to condemn you or me. I’m saying them to bring a soberness to our relationship with Him. He is the Almighty and we are not. He is holy and we are to be holy as He is holy (Leviticus 11:45, 1 Peter 1:13-16)
I would rather have Him to judge me. David understood this is 2 Samuel 24 when he took the census of Israel and Yahweh gave King David three options as to how the judgement for this sin would be dealt with. David chose the option of Yahweh’s hand because David understood he could cry out and Yah would be more merciful than any judgement by the hand of a man (2 Sam. 24:14)
So I will always give account to Him submit myself to His judgement. The blood of Yeshua also gives us the right (righteousness) to enter into the Holy of Holies. It sanctifies, cleanses and gives us direct access to the throne of God, but it definitely does not give us the right to habitually sin and not expect it to be an offense against our God. We must definitely have a heart of repentance and humility. Let us, especially myself, each day by the Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Spirit) be strong in His spirit and crucify this flesh just as Yeshua did. Believers be strong in the Spirit.
Mat_26:41 Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.